Pain In Growth

I believe that we as Children of God experience pain when we are going through growth spurts. There are times I wonder if I am growing at all but it has become clear that we are always in the process of change. Sometimes we shrink back due to sin and the consequences that follow our choices. However, there comes a time when we are at our lowest, that we come before God truly asking Him to change our hearts. That is what I am going through lately. One thing I am certain of is that God is with me. He has not allowed me to have my way while heading down the wrong path, therefore He has never forsaken me. He delights in me and will keep me from falling into the comfort of continuing in my sin because He longs to see me prosper in my walk with Him. He allows me to see the damage of not following closely on His path. With all this change that is going on, whether we are improving or not, the one thing that does not change is God's love for us. He loves us the same no matter what. He doesn't love us less when we get trapped in our weaknesses or when we fall. There are times I don't want to let go of something I want so much, but God in His love, doesn't allow it because He sees the harm of me having something that He knows in the end will be bad and will hurt me. He desires to give me something more but He isn't going to give it to me until I am ready to receive and handle with care the gifts He longs to lavish on me. That goes for you also. Sometimes we lose hope when we aren't getting what we pray and ask for right away even though it is good. Just because we have to wait for it doesn't mean He isn't answering our prayers. His thoughts and ways are much higher than ours and His timing is always perfect. We just need to pray and wait, pray...wait. God is good. :)

Things were going really good a couple weeks ago when I wrote my last post. However, I am learning to set some things aside because a part of me is in this healing process and sometimes I just need to step away and put my focus back on God completely, until He moves me and shows me what direction He wants me to step in. I am not going to get into detail over exactly what has been happening. I have already laid it down at the feet of my Savior and am going to allow Him to carry me and change me so that I may grow to be more like Him. Then, I will be ready to take on the new challenges ahead with a trusting heart and longing to stay closer at His side. I pray we all link together in prayer over all that we have going on in life and expect Him to act. In His time!