Monday, May 7, 2018

Delighted in Truth

I am so blessed to have this time to share the work that God is doing in my life. It has been quite the struggle getting back to this place spiritually and having the desire to write. There is just so much that God has brought to light and He has given me the strength to see things through His eyes. During my last post, I shared about how someone I knew had ended his life. This has been an absolutely horrific thing to go through. A lot of light was shed on the situation and although my heart is pained at this loss, I am relieved to know that I had no reason to feel as guilty as I did. It took a very long time to see that. But God knew what I needed in my heart, to at least have some peace. There are so many things that we as fallen humans don't understand. But God has shown me so much, that made me realize I don't need to understand it all. He meets those in need in the darkest of places. And even though we don't have all the answers, God does. We just can't understand things as clearly on this side. But someday, we will.

I had a pretty good day. Still needing to let things absorb, but healing takes time. I have seen God's hands move in prayer and I have faith He will continue to bring us all the healing we need. But on the side of praying for healing and strength, I have had a lot of time to just sit and spend with God. I had the day off and I just really needed Him to help put my focus back on the things He has for me. One of my favorite prayers is asking God to open my eyes to the things He wants to show me. Sometimes, He just reveals the truth about things, which can be painful. Other times, He does other things that make my heart all warm and fuzzy.

Yesterday, my son and I had to stop and get groceries. I wanted to stop at Old Navy spur of the moment, but it turned out they were closed. So, I thought let's just go to Bed Bath and Beyond. They were right next door to Old Navy, and they have a great selection of things to look at. We started walking around and then my son noticed some pet type things and said we should get that for my parents dogs. I then remembered that my dad's birthday is coming up and we should look for a gift. We walked all throughout the store and I had no idea what to get for him. We found this thing called a Butter Boy that helps butter corn on the cob. I thought that's a good one. We continued walking through the store and near the end, I had no idea. But we ended up finding outdoor games for camping or grilling out. They had the game which is a bean bag toss, but turns out it's also called Corn Hole. My son said that would be a good one. I thought perhaps he was right and so we bought it. --So, tonight, as I was making dinner, I wrapped all the gifts in Christmas wrap, because that is all I have right now. We also bought a dog treat container last night while grocery shopping. I thought it would be nice since they make their own dog treats. After dinner and getting things situated, we thought it would be nice to surprise my dad with his gifts. His birthday is on Wednesday and I have to work that evening. He liked his gifts a lot. And when he opened the big box, he was excited and told me about how he woke up at 3:30am this morning because he couldn't sleep. He turned on his tv and they were playing Corn Hole. He thought it would be fun to play. I didn't think as much about it for some reason when I was there. I was just like cool. But when I got home and spent some time in prayer, I realized that God orchestrated all of this. Even though my dad work up so early. I didn't mention this tonight. So it will be a story for later. I'm filled with joy. I wanted to call my parents, but it's late now and they are sleeping. These are the kinds of things God does. I'll make a swift move to do something and not realize it till later. God works in mysterious ways!

There is more I would like to share before I call it a night. I just spent some time praying. I just wanted to Thank God for what He did. Directing my steps and allowing my dad to experience it also. Although he'll know more when I can share all of that. But after praying, I wanted to read. I opened the Bible and kind of flipped through it, and stopped by Psalm 20 & 21 Those are the two I felt I should read. As I read Psalm 20, verse 4 stood out to me. It says, May he grant your heart's desires and make all your plans succeed. I was thinking how it reminded me of a special verse that I hold dear to my heart. I then started reading Psalm 21. And in verse 2 it says, For you have given him your heart's desire; you have withheld nothing he requested. I wasn't sure if there was going to be more in the Psalm after that, but I felt this was it for now. The verse I hold dear is Psalm 37:4. God has revealed it to me so much over the years. Of course it has been a while. But He brought it to me today. Psalm 37:4 says, Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desires. That is exactly what I was doing today as I sat outside enjoying the beautiful weather. My heart is flooded with joy and it is like nothing else. These moments of wonder that God brings. His word is so powerful!

One more thing, God has answered prayer for my dear sister Angie. She has been going through some rough times and asked me to pray. I did, and HE was quick to answer. We do go through times were we feel disconnected in a sense. It's not a good feeling at all, because God is our lifeline. But it just happens in this fallen world and in our fallen bodies. Today, she was able to meet with God again and is feeling closer to Him. Even though we are far apart, God brings us close together in Spirit and in Truth.

I hope you are encouraged by this post. Maybe you know God, or maybe you don't. We all have access to the One who created us. He gives order to this messy world in which we live and there is hope for everyone. So, if you want to know how to experience God in the most radical way, talk with Him. If you have the desire, surely God wants to make it a personal experience for you. If you aren't sure where to start, feel free to reach out to me. I'm not a perfect person, but God has delivered me from death and I want everyone to know Him the way I do. Good night.

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Made New...Again!

Hello my friends!

I can't believe how much time has passed since the last time I have written. There is so much I have to share with you and am thankful for what God is doing in my life. All glory to Him for using me to share my spiritual journey with you.

Today holds great meaning to me. I was born-again exactly 12 years ago today. It is with much regret that I have not walked close to the Lord since my last blog entry. I have tasted the rotten fruit of straying off the good and well-lit path and I have been so broken because of it. But as the Word says in Isaiah 53:6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray. We have left God's paths to follow our own. But the Lord has caused the iniquity of us all to fall on Him. God gives us free will, and with it comes great consequences. But when we realize the err of our way and humble ourselves under His holiness, He is ready and willing to grant us forgiveness. Healing power is in His hands, which HE gives to ALL who come to him with reverent hearts, willing to once again submit to his ways.

I have chased after the foolish things of the world, and spent many nights feeling empty and incomplete. I have chased after the wrong kind of men, and have cried many tears after suffering a broken heart, time and time again. There is so much that I have done over the past few years that have kept me from experiencing God's blessing and joy in my life. It took something extremely tragic to open my eyes again to my need of Jesus. I wish not get into detail about it, but someone I was close to died by suicide. It is all to painful to think about, let alone talk about. But I am allowing God to have control over my life again and I've seen Him do great things. He laid on my heart to pray for this person prior to this happening and I hold onto that prayer, knowing that God is with all of us in our darkest of times. He desires to give life and hope to the hurting and hopeless. I entrust the outcome of that prayer to the Lord. So, if you are struggling in your walk with the Lord and feel your heartstrings being tugged on. Turn to the Him and pray. He doesn't turn away from those who come to Him with a broken and contrite spirit. Read and pray Psalm 51 over your life.

My son and I have recently moved out of the house we were living in for just over four years. We found a beautiful apartment in a nicer area of the city in which we live. God is working in my heart through the pain I've endured over my recent hardships. I am happy to share that this apartment isn't haunted. There is such a glow about this place and God is blessing me so much with time to spend with Him. Let us all remember though, that no matter were we are, God is our hiding place and in Him we will find refuge. Read Psalm 32 and Psalm 91. I actually read Psalm 91 several times last night and I had this tingling sensation run through my body. I believe it was the Holy Spirit testifying and allowing me to feel the Power of His Word. Especially at the end where the Lord says, "I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I will answer. I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation." I have seen the enemy flee after reading that Psalm. Perhaps you remember reading my post titled 'Cleaning House Part 1'. Every time I read Psalm 91, there is just something about it. We can have that anywhere in God's Word. We just have to ask for the Holy Spirit to teach us and make His power known. I love experiencing the supernatural power of the Word of God.

I am excited to be writing again. We are in the midst of a blizzard, and Summer is sneaking up on us before we know it. Unfortunately, where I am, we do not have much of a Spring this year. In a couple months, I am going to be in a wedding for a good friend of mine in which I am her maid-of-honor. I am also working a lot and so I will do my best to keep the posts coming. And as always, if you need some spiritual advice, prayer or have anything you'd like to share, feel free to email me at delightinthetruth@hotmail.com. If you want to know Jesus and what it means to be born-again, read my testimony. It's the post titled 'Evie's Testimony, Saved in a Hot Tub. That is my God story!

Good night!

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Revived and Alive

Thank you for stopping in at my blog! I am excited to share what has been happening in my life, behind the scenes, director's cut. All raw and laid open to share and give you a look behind the life of Evie. But more so, what God has been doing in my life after all this time of not writing, sharing and encouraging. I'm back though and have much to tell. It is just part of my story and I am ready to share about it!

These past couple years have been a disaster for me. It actually started in September or early October of 2014, when I started working as a costumer care rep. I had kidney stones and remember being in a lot of pain for that two weeks of training. Toward the end of that training period, I had to have the stones surgically broken down. I became well again, but it was still rather tough for quite some time afterwards. Unfortunately and rather quickly, I came down with an infection in my veins which was quite painful and took much time to get over. And then AGAIN, shortly after new years in 2015, about a week after as I remember, I discovered I had something more serious going on. It explained other symptoms that were happening that I had no idea of. I had a sore foot and was limping around. I was also coughing a lot (a dry but constant cough). From time to time, I would have to go spit whatever would come up and I noticed....blood. The doctors took x-rays on a couple of different occasions and said I had no breaks or injury in my foot or anything that they can tell it was from. They also said the coughing was just from dry air. I was relieved in a way because I know that coughing up blood can be very serious. A lot of these symptoms were happening in the Fall of 2014 and it just seemed like it was all going downhill from there. I was working part-time and was settling into this new job. All seemed really good otherwise.

Right after new years, it all took a turn for the worst. I woke up one morning, I think it was a Sunday but can't really remember. I woke up and my chest hurt. It felt heavy and it was really hard to breath. I was coughing terribly and I was noticing that my pulse and heart were beating oddly fast. I went to use the bathroom and then walked back to my couch and felt as though I ran a marathon. I was also freezing and shaking. Something wasn't right and I knew I had to get in touch with my doctor. I called the clinic that I have been going to for years. They had me go in to be checked out. It was extremely cold out and I was almost disoriented as I drove myself. When I got there and was in the room with the doctor, I explained all the symptoms and what I was experiencing up until then, thinking it was all somehow an underlying reason for this. To my surprise, they told me it was bronchitis. I didn't agree because I've had bronchitis before and this was not even remotely close to that. I even tried to explain that it wasn't. Instead of listening to me, they sent in an antibiotic for me to pick up from the pharmacy and instructed me to go home and rest. Well, I did just that. I stopped at the pharmacy and picked up the meds, went home and hooked up the heating blanket my sister gave me for Christmas. I took an antibiotic and proceeded to take a nap. I can't remember how long I slept for. But when I woke up, I was shaking even worse. I was coughing worse and even though I didn't get up to use the bathroom, I was gasping for air. I called my doctors office again, explaining that things have gotten worse. My pulse was racing unbelievably fast. That was then that they told me to go to the ER and that I should not drive myself. And as I would, I called my mom and asked her to take me in to the ER. The ride was such a blur. Before I knew it, I am at the ER and I don't recall the wait being very long. I remember the nurse hooking me up with an IV and taking blood. She also did an H1N1 swap and stuck this thing up far up my nose. I didn't want it done but she did it anyway. She's lucky I didn't backhand her for that. I was ready to run out of there, I was mad! After that, it was time for more x-rays. It would have been nice if they gave me a wheel chair when I went to have x-rays done. It is hard to remember the order that it all happened. Everything was happening so fast and my mom was there. But eventually, the doctor requested I had a c-scan done. It was a more in depth x-ray, unlike the others they took. When the doctor came and told the results and their findings, I was told I had multiple blood clots in my lungs. What was the cause? They said it was probably from the nuva ring I used. It is a form of birth control that I was using to treat my endometriosis. Don't even get me started on that. But in knowing this, I took the nuva ring out right away. I knew that was the end of birth control for me.

As the story continues, I found out that I had a pulmonary embolism that morning. I could have died. Many people die from PE. I hear they are very hard to detect ant it can be too late for most people. I had all the symptoms and it's almost unreal that my family doctor was not able to find out the cause. I am thankful that the ER doctor did. It saved my life! The pain in my foot was actually a blood clot that ended up going to my lungs and it just turned out I had multiple. That is why the doctors didn't see anything at the clinic when they did x-rays on my foot. Not only that but the blood I coughed up was a result of the clots that formed in my lungs and that caused the coughing and shortness of breath. I had to get on blood thinners after they detected what it was. My mom had to give me shots in my stomach twice a day for a week. The first one was given to me by the nurse in the ER. I think I only spent one night at the hospital. Actually, I cannot remember if it was one or two nights to be exact. But I remember the nurse showing my mom how to give me the shots. It was a horrible experience! But once the med kicked in, it was the start of my recovery. I had to have it done in order to heal and hopefully get well again. There were no guarantees and it was a risk I had to take.

God spared my life that day! It could have been the end of Evie. At least on this earth. But instead, the meds took action. I was getting my blood drawn several times for the weeks and months that followed. Eventually, I had to take blood thinners in pill form and had to watch my diet. I had to cut my pills at times to closely monitor my doses. I couldn't eat greens or have other certain things. I did anyway though and had to pay the piper when my levels were off.

Not long after that, I started with another team at work and also met a wonderful guy at who worked in the same building. I'm not going to get into all of that though. If I really allow myself to think about it, I still find that I hurt somewhere deep down. But anyway, it is a part of my journey now and a portion I felt was worth mentioning. It was hard to be at work at times, but I knew I had to be there. I really enjoyed the team I was on. Without them, I don't think I would have made it as far as I did. However, I let work take the place of all that was going on inside and out. Through my health and all the other things I was experiencing, I started to take my focus more and more off of God and put it more on myself and my job. So much, that it became my idol in a way. That is how it has been up until recently. Other things happened throughout that time as well that pulled me further and further away. And as I sit here right now, writing and thinking about all that happened, I realize that only one thing matters. I am alive and doing much better right now because God brought me back to this place before Him. A place where he has restored my life and the true purpose for my existence.

This is a lot to read, I know. It's becoming a book at this point. I have more to share and I am going to be adding a Part 2 which is going to pull it all into a spiritual perspective. As you know, there are things that I will not going into detail about. But this is where I am at now. I am happy to say that I am no longer on blood thinners and I can eat greens again! The clots are gone. Sadly, I still cough due to dead tissue in my lungs. It's not nearly as bad as it use to be though. For those that know me well, know that God is my life. I love and breathe because of God and He has delivered me from the grave. I have made mistakes. I have hurt others and myself in the process. I have felt awful. But that is not who I am. This is just an outline of that part of my life. God will help me fill in the rest!

I just want to end this part of this chapter but saying I am thankful for everyone in my life. The story is going to continue and that is what the next chapter is about. Our life is a story that just keeps on going. It is up to us to keep on telling. I have time right now to keep going with mine. I like to share my story! If you know me, you are part of my story somehow. Even if I don't get into detail about each one of you and how you are in it. Just know that you are. I am thankful for you.

Friday, June 24, 2016

New Posts, Coming Soon!

Good morning, friends!

Thank you for stopping by! It is a lovely morning here in Wisconsin, as I sip my coffee from this lovely yellow mug. My dear friend and spiritual sister (who led me to Christ) came to visit yesterday and we spent part of our time thrifting. I found a couple of these yellow mugs and a red tray to place them on. So sweet! We talked a lot about God also and I shared with her some of the things that I've been going through and how He is making all things new for me once again. I know this is going to make for a really good post about what God is doing and hopefully it will help you along your way as well!

We are nearing the end of June and the weather has been absolutely gorgeous. I am so thankful that things are finally starting to look up for me once again. As much as I would love to share all the details, it's really never quite that simple. Just know that it has been a challenging year or so and I will pray that God will help me put into words all the things that I want to share. My upcoming post is going to be what God has shown me about being a prodigal child and how He restores us when we turn back to Him. We are given the choice to stay close to Him and experience His blessings in full or we can be stubborn in the flesh to go after things we are deceived into thinking will somehow fulfill us. And God knows that if we are truly His children, we can't settle for the ways of the world. Sadly, we will always be waging war against the ways of the flesh vs. the Spirit of God that resides in us after we become believers in Jesus. It's not easy to look back at what seems like wasted time, after we stray from the good, well-lit path. But the blessings that we can pull from it are the lessons we learn, and those reach far greater! So perhaps, you're reading this and everything I am saying makes complete sense and you are in desperate need of spiritual renewing. Maybe you were distracted and stumbled off the good path as well. There are 42 verses in the Bible that refer to the living water and how we can find that spiritual refreshment when we are in need. Take time to search some of those verses. You can make it as simple as a quick internet search or check the contents in your Bible. It is amazing to see how often living water is referred to in God's Word. It's amazing that we can go to God with all of our cares and worries, give it all to Him and He will restore our faith. Here are just a few of those verses:

But whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” -John 4:14

And the Lord will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong; and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail. -Isaiah 58:11

Keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life. -Proverbs 4:23

I am excited to share more about what God is showing me. Things are changing on the work front for me and so God is blessing me with the time to slow down as He is helping me to recover once again and build up in spiritual strength. I know that not everyone who reads this will understand much about God and what this all means. We all have a story though and each story is different. Our life is our story and it is always changing based on what we choose to make of it. Or it can be about the One who created us and holds eternity in the palm of His hand. In most cases, we don't choose the things that happen in our lives, but we can choose to make it a good thing! The one thing all stories do have in common, is that they are made to be told! In my story, I placed my faith in Christ back in 2006 and I have no doubt about where my soul will rest when I die. Search my posts and you will find "Saved In A Hot Tub!" Evie's Testimony and you can learn about how my journey with God began. I really think you will be blessed by it!

Stay tuned for my upcoming posts! Remember that you can always reach out to me at delightinthetruth@hotmail.com or speak to a pastor about anything you are wondering about God and the Bible. But most importantly, the best source for answers and guidance, is God Himself. Only He can reveal to you what your sole purpose in life is and allow Him show you THE WAY!

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Alive and Well

Dear Readers,

It has been quite some time since I have written a post here. For those that are new here, I say welcome. For those who are checking in, thank you for stopping in again. I hope this finds you all well. Life has been quite hectic here. These past couple years have been rough. I can't complain much, but I can confess that spiritually, things haven't been the greatest. For whatever reason, I know God continues to keep His eye on this sparrow. My odds have ever been in His favor, because I am His child. I am hoping to find light on this path again soon and have more to share with you. I've been working a lot. I feel that my life is consumed by my job and I don't have the same balance as I had before. It's just the path I have chosen to take to lead a better example for my son. I wish I can say I have done well in that regard. I try and that's all that matters, right? Anyway, if you are facing some ongoing challenges and things don't seem that great, just remember to keep your head up. Keep going. Keep the faith. That is all I have time to share tonight. I do hope to find another opportunity in the near future to write more. My email is still up if you need to drop a note. I might not have all the answers. But I am always willing to offer advice, encouragement and be an ear if you need one. Enjoy your night. God bless!

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Feedback?

If you have any questions, comments or topics to suggest I write about, please feel to email me at delightinthetruth@hotmail.com. It is nice to receive any feedback also regarding this blog. If you have an experience or something you feel led to share, please do. It would be nice to hear from you! Thank you!

Monday, April 21, 2014

Come Alive

I know...it's been quite a while since I've last written. A lot of things have happened since my last post and not all of it is good. But as you know, I don't need to dig up what has been buried. Thank God for that! I am also incredibly thankful for the time I have right now to bring you God's Word and talk about the things He has pressed on my heart to share. Lives are being changed every day because of God stories. Anyone I know who reads this, knows that God plays the biggest role in my life. Sure, I am so full of many imperfections and I don't always get it right. However, I long to please God who is beyond perfect. And because I accepted Jesus as my Savior, I am in the process of becoming more and more like Him. I am a work in progress. One day, all that He has desired to do in me will be complete. Till then...

This past weekend was Easter. Eight years ago on Good Friday, I received Christ. I don't always see my own spiritual growth, but I do know that as Christians, we are always in the process of growing. There have been times the devil has used people to try and convince me that I haven't grown much at all. What a lie! This is what I know regarding the matter from the Bible. Walk with the wise and become wise; associate with fools and get in trouble(Proverbs 13:20). We have got to ignore the voice of the devil. As believers, we need to know God's Word so that we are able to discern God's voice vs. the devil's. The devil is hard at work trying to make our testimonies weak and the work of God in our lives to be as ineffective as possible. If he could (and I'm sure he has), he'd try to get even believers to take their own lives, let alone to make life a living hell. He will use anything he can to take us down. That is why we are called to stand FIRM and declare God's Word over our lives! Be careful who you allow into your lives and who you choose to listen to.

There is one more thing I'd like to share before I must close for the night. It is getting late. Last Tuesday, we had the honor is watching the 1st of 4 blood moon's (lunar eclipse) that will occur in the next year. Look up blood moons in the Bible! It was creepy and amazing all at the same time. As excited as I get about the coming of the Lord, I am also deeply burdened for the lost who are heading for eternity apart from Christ. Our lives here on earth are brief, but eternity is forever. If you are reading this and are uncertain of whether you are going to heaven or not, do not delay. Receive Christ now!!! A terminally ill person may be told by the doctor that they only have months, weeks or days left to live. You, my friend, aren't even guaranteed tomorrow or even the next five minutes. Once you die, that is it. There is no turning back! Trust me, once you realize the truth, it might be after you die. There is nothing you can do about it then. Don't let that be you. Now is the time to get right before you go wrong...for eternity!

And now some insight and scripture:

***God wants to deliver you and that is why you are reading this now. His Word can save your life and deliver you from death! ***

He sent out His word and healed them; He rescued them from the grave. Psalm 107:20

***Only God can give you the victory to overcome the trials in life. He keeps you safe! He has kept the enemy from pursuing you.***

"My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me." Psalm 62:7

***By placing your faith in Jesus, you have no reason to fear evil. The enemy is defeated.***

"For every child of God defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. 1 John 5:4